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Sent to a friend Im 19 and i want to die so much.I've had severe depression problems since i was a kid.
I loved a girl for 3 years before an intense 9 month relationship, which ended 3 years ago. I still think about her EVERY SINGLE DAY, sometimes all day, sometimes something small reminds me of her. I dont love her anymore because we havnt spoken much since, but i havn't been with anyone else since and i miss the love so much. We're still friends and shes there for me, but i can't tell her.
I frequently spend hours alone crying in my room,smashing it up or smoking cannabis until i fall asleep. i havnt told anybody what im going through, this is the first time ive let it out of my head.
life REALLY isnt worth it. I hope it gets a lot better soon because if i believed in God as the creator and maintainer of all life, I would hate him.
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Comments
- get off the pot seek help be produtive
- I think you should not talk to the bitch. the cannabis will help you. just masterbate when u are high. it's good.
- You are weak. Work hard to get stronger. Work hard to change that which you do not like about yourself. Go to college, it is a great place to fall in love again. Lastly, stop smoking weed! It ain't gonna solve any of your problems for you, you must overcome them yourself, that is what it means to be a man.
- hang in there get off the pot, i love the stuff but no good can come of it... I'm an old guy(39) and have had my heart ripped out. Get some menning less sex to get her off you mind. trust me some one will come along steel you heart.. you may never forget but time will help heal some shit. Good luck and keep the faith
- the weed is fucking you up, get off it and get help for the depression, and for christ sake get laid!
- Get some professional help, thats what they do for a living and they understand....your only one of millions who have gone thru stuff like this....your not a wierdo for feeling this way but you do have to move on...there are millions of relantionships but not every one of them is the right one..and if its not a two way street for feelings then its wrong....believe me, there are others who you could and will feel the same connection...just take time to find quality like the one you lost....be honest tho...we're all different but some have wonderful qualitites but might not be just the same type of person, you have to be flexible, not too demanding, youll find someone....just like loosing someone in death, its terrible, but it happens everyday to millions around the world, move on for you own sake. Take a trip, get some fresh air and rediscover yourself. Drugs will just makes things worse
- I agree with most of these posts, get off the pot. Its a natural depressant. And I believe that you're wrong, you do still love this girl or else you wouldn't think of her everyday. You need to find help for the depression, you can't fight it alone. Trust me on this I've been battling my own depression without outside help, and its only got worse. Go to you county health department, they should be able to help for free, or put you on a "sliding scale". And take some time away from her. If she was/is a real friend she would understand that you need time to heal from the break.
