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Sent to a friend I had group sex with my boyfriend, who I am madly in love with, and another couple I don't know. We were all on pills and had drunk a lot, and to be honest it was crap. But I put on a show, pretended I was into it, to turn the guys on and convince myself I was too. I think the other girl was faking too. Why do women do that? I thought I was just trying something new, it'd be experimental and fun. I did it for my boyfriend. I lied and 'went with the flow'. It is a huge mistake.As soon as they left, my boyfriend went crazy. It was so painful. I have never felt so awful. i did it to myself. But I was also mad that he wanted to share me with some random stranger and now he was mad at me. He was just so hurt, I could barely take in how much I had hurt him. I let someone have sex with me, and in my mind I was submitting myself totally for my boyfriends pleasure. How incredibly stupid.
We had a very intense few days together. We have a very real true love, but we made a mistake, which put doubts in eachothers minds that were never there before, and that shouldn't be there.
We realised that what we have is real and means too much to end because of this. Sometimes memories of that stupid night come back to me. I think the I love this person so much, it moves me almost to tears when i think of him. And I know he loves me too. We are moving on, and I'm so glad we are together.
I understand now that I have to strive to stand up for myself, and my love,.
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- I think that all to often girls try to "please" their boyfriend or husband by doing this. My girlfriend was in a very similar situation with her ex husband, and while we were first dating, she told me about it to turn me on, since she was with the girls too, and it did turn me on, but as I fell more and more in love with her, thoughts of her doing these things upset me greatly, and not because I wish I was there with her. Now every time we are watching tv or a movie r something where there are girls kissing, it brings her to tears and she apologizes to me non stop. I think if you truly love someone, that anything the two of you do together, there is not problem with that, but it is when someone does not truly love someone that this situation arrives. Allot of people I think feel that this kind of activity is arousing, but only from the outside. I think that it can truly hurt a relationship, and I am glad that the two of you have stuck together.
My words of advice, if you are striving for an honest loving long lasting relationship, please think long and hard about any acts of group sexual activity, as the emotional outcome could and will be devastating.
